Nine Years of Blogging

Nine years ago I started blogging. I began journaling four years before that, but truly, ever since I was a teenager I’ve found writing to be an easier way of expressing my thoughts. I’ve gotten better at communicating, but with PTSD and anxiety, I found myself unable to put all my thoughts in order.

I often described my mind like alphabet soup, except with words. I felt like I had to fish for what I was thinking in a sea of thoughts. When I was upset or hurting or angry, I would have to pull out thoughts and work through process of elimination to figure out why I was feeling the way I was feeling. I had no idea that I was dealing with PTSD or anxiety, and for the longest time I believed I was over-sensitive, over-emotional, and emotionally erratic, and I felt ashamed for it. Words can’t express how freeing it is to know I’m not those things and to find strength in the truth of who I really am.

Once I found blogging, it just felt like a fit. I enjoy typing and I can type much faster than I can write. When I began to blog, I felt like I could share what I was working through, so if one other person was interested with what I was learning or could relate in some way, than God could use it all for His glory and for the good of His children.

I found order to my thoughts, and once I found order to my thoughts, I could put the pieces together to find the truth. I’m thankful to be on the continued search of truth after living with so many lies that I’d been believing. I still deal with the PTSD and anxiety when circumstances that somehow remind my mind of my trauma, trigger a physical response, but knowing what it is I’m working through has helped in such a huge way.

When you’ve been convinced that you could become mentally ill at any moment, you believe everything is a sign that you’re crazy. So to realize I’m not crazy, but that my body is responding to the traumas that I experienced in my past, means everything.

Nine years of growing and learning, and I still am on that journey of healing and learning the truth, but I can see all the amazing things God has done so far; and I’m excited to see what other great things He is doing as He brings me through. ♥

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11

Word: Good News

“How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him who brings good news, who publishes peace, who brings good news of happiness, who publishes salvation, who says to Zion, ‘Your God reigns.'” Isaiah 52:7

“And the angel answered him, “I am Gabriel. I stand in the presence of God, and I was sent to speak to you and to bring you this good news.” Luke 1:19

Hebrew: 2895. tob
Original Word: בָּשַׂר
Phonetic Spelling: (baw-sar’)
Definition: news; bear good news; proclaim good tidings

Greek: 2097. euaggelizó
Original Word: εὐαγγελίζω
Phonetic Spelling: (yoo-ang-ghel-id’-zo)
Definition: bring good news, preach good tidings, with or without an object, expressing either the persons who receive the good news or the good news itself (the good news being sometimes expressed as a person).

Websters Dictionary 1828 – Online Edition
TI’DINGS, noun plural News; advice; information; intelligence; account of what has taken place, and was not before known.

Word: Fall

for the righteous falls seven times and rises again, but the wicked stumble in times of calamity.” Proverbs 24:16

“As for what was sown on rocky ground, this is the one who hears the word and immediately receives it with joy, yet he has no root in himself, but endures for a while, and when tribulation or persecution arises on account of the word, immediately he falls away.” Matthew 13:20-21

Hebrew: 5307. naphal
Original Word: נָפַל
Phonetic Spelling: (naw-fal’)
Definition: A primitive root; to fall, in a great variety of applications (intransitive or causative, literal or figurative) — be accepted, cast (down, self, (lots), out), cease, die, divide (by lot), (let) fail, (cause to, let, make, ready to) fall (away, down, -en, -ing), fell(-ing), fugitive, have (inheritance), inferior, be judged (by mistake for palal), lay (along), (cause to) lie down, light (down), be (X hast) lost, lying, overthrow, overwhelm, perish, present(-ed, -ing), (make to) rot, slay, smite out, X surely, throw down.

Greek: 4624. skandalizó
Original Word: σκανδαλίζω
Phonetic Spelling: (skan-dal-id’-zo)
Definition: cause to stumble, cause to sin, cause to become indignant, shock, offend.
Cognate: 4624 skandalízō – properly, set a snare (“stumbling-block“); (figuratively) “to hinder right conduct or thought; to cause to stumble” – literally, “to fall into a trap” (Abbott-Smith).

Webster’s Dictionary 1828 – Online Edition
FALL, verb intransitive preterit tense fell; participle passive fallen. [Latin fallo, to fail, to deceive, Gr.; Heb. to fall Fail agrees better with Heb., but these words may have had one primitive root, the sense of which was to move, to recede, to pass. See Foul.]

 

*4. To depart from the faith, or from rectitude; to apostatize. Adam fell by eating the forbidden fruit.

*6. To come to an end suddenly; to vanish; to perish.

*7. To be degraded; to sink into disrepute or disgrace; to be plunged into misery; as, to fall from an elevated station, or from a prosperous state.

*8. To decline in power, wealth or glory; to sink into weakness; to be overthrown or ruined. This is the renowned Tyre; but oh, how fallen.

*9. To pass into a worse state than the former; to come; as, to fall into difficulties; to fall under censure of imputation; to fall into error or absurdity; to fall into a snare. In these and similar phrases, the sense of suddenness, accident or ignorance is often implied; but not always.

To seem more examples, click here: Webster’s Dictionary 1828 – Online Edition

 

Mark 5:42

LOL… this made me chuckle. But for realz though. If you got out of bed today, good for you! For some who struggle with anxiety, PTSD, and/or depression, that’s a huge feat! ♥

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And when he had entered, he said to them, ‘Why are you making a commotion and weeping? The child is not dead but sleeping.’ And they laughed at him. But he put them all outside and took the child’s father and mother and those who were with him and went in where the child was. Taking her by the hand he said to her, ‘Talitha cumi,’ which means, ‘Little girl, I say to you, arise.’ And immediately the girl got up and began walking (for she was twelve years of age), and they were immediately overcome with amazement.” Mark 5:39-42

Finding Empowerment

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As a woman, I’ve found a need to discover empowerment through the truths in the Word:

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Not the confusion of the world:

 

 

 

 

 

Too much time stressing about outer appearance and comparing myself to men has done nothing to make me feel strong… and I can see a similar response in others. It doesn’t empower me in a way that benefits the kingdom, my family, or myself. Empowering women as the beautiful daughters of God that they are. Now that, that is where they find their true value and worth.

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Women must rally together. Put childish things away and support other women: empower each other by building up in strengths and bearing burdens with one another.

 

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It’s not an exclusive club to women. We should also empower our men to live out the call of God on their lives as well.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Let us be women as Titus 2 talks of:

 

 

Let us as older women be the example for the younger women,
and let us as younger women look to the older women as the example.

 

 

 

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Be There

It astounds me how long a person can go without contacting their child, especially when one has taken any issue with the lack of care from their own parent. Truly astounds me.

You are a parent. Be the person you hoped you had in your own life. Be a friend. Be there.

I know so many people who don’t have a relationship with their parents. It’s so perplexing. I don’t have adult children… but I can’t imagine never attempting to connect and see how their doing and just being a part of their world. You know? It’s just weird.