“Love covers a multitude of sins…” 1 Peter 4:8b
In context, this scripture says, “Most importantly, love each other ·deeply [earnestly], because love ·will cause people to forgive each other for many sins [L covers a multitude of sins; Prov. 10:12; Luke 7:46–47].” 1 Peter 4:7-8
From a previous entry, “Before everything, earnestly hold fast to our esteem for one another because preference and goodwill for one another veils a great number of failures.” (broken down using Greek translations of each word from bible.cc)
When I’ve heard that passage, I understood that to mean hide, cover over, and keep private. So as I ponder this today, I think of my relationship with my sisters and my parents, and the book I’ve written, and the blogs I’ve posted. With that I can see that I have not loved them deeply or earnestly. I have not loved. I have not allowed Christ to live His life through me towards them, actively done what the Lord prefers, embraced God’s best offer for my life towards them, nor obeyed His choices through His power in regards to them.
I have not hidden, covered over, nor kept their sins private regarding my wounds. If I had loved them as earnestly as I had in the past, I’d have continued to do so. So in my anger, I ought to have covered the offender while addressing the moral content of the offense. I allowed myself to become provoked, exasperated, and so deeply discouraged that I no longer sought to cover them. For that I am truly sorry.
As I’ve studied from the passage addressing going to bed angry, I was not to fight it out and allow myself to be out of control and hurt others until it was figured out. No, in our anger we are not to sin. “Let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, but what is good for necessary edification, that it may impart grace to the hearers.” Ephesians 4:29-30
I am sorry for exposing those I felt hurt by publicly for their offenses. I could have addressed my pain in a more loving manner towards them while still processing through all I needed to work through, while addressing the hurts that so deeply penetrated my core, while working to find God’s grace to best understand how and why they impacted me as they had and have.
I sought to take redress in my own hands, when I should have taken what I was working through as an opportunity to challenge myself to work through my anger and control my tongue, to speak forth helpful truths to those around me, to let all bitterness be put away from me; to be kind, tenderhearted, and forgiving as Ephesians 4:31-32 states, especially seeing as that was the end result.
Does this mean I am not still working through hurt and anger, especially over things I can not control or even change? No. I am still wrestling through these things, however I strive to no longer hold onto discontentment in my spirit, to remove my impulsive outbursts of passion, to control my passionate feelings against the hurts I’ve endured, and to not be slow to call something good that is good and bad that is bad. I am a useful, compassionate, merciful, forgiving child of God, and I want to bless Him in all I do… it’s my prayer that I only continue to grow in these gifts from Him, to bless and honor those around me.